Calm

My mind is calm today.  I am reassured and I am feeling back to normal.  It was all in my head.  I will have to remember this in the future, that my mind and the fantasies it can concoct are just that - fantasies created by this evil, twisted, voracious and unstoppable thing that lives inside my head. 

 It's like I have an evil twin inside me.  I am my body, I have my own mind but my twin is only a mind and it shares dwelling space with my mind.  Whereas I have a body to work with and so that can occupy my mind from time to time, my twin does not and so it is free to work its mind all day, every day and it has learned how to impose its will over my own when my attention wanes sufficiently.  How else to explain can I can know what is going on, I see myself following the same patterns again and again and again and yet I am powerless to stop myself?  Clearly, something beyond my control is in command.  

In any case, it seems I am back to my normal, carefree, fun loving self.  Off I go to do fun things...